Few years ago, I became so angry at some incident. Wow! the anger came!, so much anger! I was talking to this person with so much anger saying “What are you doing!!” I have forgotten how terrible the vibration of anger was as I have not been angry for years. It almost felt like the vibration of anger penetrate through all my cells in the body and back flowing. I was surprised to notice how negative anger is. But when I think back my past, anger was not a big deal as I was so used to this vibration. But because of absence of my anger for a long time, I could watch this well. We may not notice this but negative vibrations penetrate throughout body. Of course positive vibrations too. However, negative ones are not good for our body.
We get annoyed when things are not going as you want or when you have too much expectation from a person. In the past, no matter how much I patiently tried to change myself, I could not overcome annoying feelings toward this person. I tried and tried thinking I am not enough! After few years of still feeling annoyed, I decided to ask that person to cooperate with me. I told the person that I have been trying hard for many years but I couldn’t do this alone. “If you change, others change”, this is true. However, there are people who don’t change. I realized here that sometimes it is also best to keep away from the person (This is not easy with your immediate family). Trying too hard, as a matter of fact, maybe ego of sense of accomplishment. I have also learned after doing the best I can patiently with something and still cannot do it, it is important to acknowledge what I could not. The key is not to “overdo” it with anything.