HF (08-24-2020)
Around the time of “Story of Letting Go” was uploaded, I was annoyed by someone and could not sleep till morning. This someone was one of our staff at work (older than me). He pretends to know everything, not honest, neither can he read the situation. In addition, he tries to look cool. That day I became so annoyed by him at work!! Usually I feel “I let it slide this time.”, but today even though my eyes were closed he appeared and I could not sleep at all.
His personality is not so bad and he has many experiences but why does he always delegate to other people those things he is supposed to do?
I told this to someone and he/she said “Isn’t it you who are not letting go? Breathe and do not judge it by your own opinion.”
The next day I relaxed at home and felt better. The following day, as I felt calm I wanted to see that person to find out how I would react to him. Surprise! I was able to see that person with such ease. And I discovered some good part of him. I did not realize that I was only looking at him through the colored glasses😅
YI (08-18-2020)
I’ve read “Story of Courage” and I realized that I was misunderstanding something.Ah, I had my own understanding of how to live honestly. I was blaming that I cannot be honest where I wanted to be untouched.When I blame myself, I start to blame people who are like me. Honest people are wonderful. So I was being prideful while trying to be honest and great. I was acting absurd.I decided to live more naturally and relax. I am tired of pretending to look better.
I’d like to feel relieved.I realized what I thought of as my weakness may be my strength. I want to be liked by people and I hide my weakness. However, I started to feel it is okay for people to think of the real me.
I still need courage to do this, but I would like to gradually become honest to myself. I am lucky to have read your blog. Thank you.
YI (08-10-2020
Your story of “To Live As Is” was so easy to understand.
I see. I used to ask myself ”Is it to live “as is”? to honestly show my emotions of sadness or anger?” I did not understand what to live “as is” means. But I see now. I was foolish that I have not been doing it. I am sure that people around me had been very pained by my not doing so, I am sorry.
I am going to try from now on to live as is. Thank you.
ST (08-10-2020)
Your story of “To Live As Is” was very easy to understand. I belong to 1). I realized, because of certain habits that I acquired when I was growing up I was not able to accept “as is” in front of me. Yesterday, I wrote in my own blog about being how we look to others. I realized I simply could not accept “as is” 😁
At the same time, I have been covered by layers of unnecessary emotions. I am going to let these emotions go one by one just like peeling an onion.
I would like to live honestly according to my essence that is hidden in the core of an onion. I am going to let my unnecessary emotions go and make my onion smaller.
NT (08-08-2020)
A false prophet, I felt this in me and also remembered that I felt this in other people.
My troublesome emotions occur but I have a tendency not to work on them on an everyday basis. Whenever that happens, I remember your words and then move on. I realized that my troublesome emotions of “I am not accepted by others.” “I am disliked” “I am being fooled” are here. And these create such heavy feelings as “I have no ability to do anything” “I have been punished”. It comes to me on top of being prideful.
Is this something that I have been carrying on since my childhood?
Ikuko Gach😃 I think you used to worry about what other people think since you were a child. You might have something that created an inferiority complex. Why don’t you find what caused you to have such a complex? After you find that, you may find your learning is easier.
Thank you for your response. My mother liked when I pretended to be smart. She used to compare me with my classmates. On the other hand, when my classmates got praised, she said,” You are better than them” with disappointment. I loved my mother so I wanted her to be happy. Maybe I am still not getting out of this cycle? I am still not sure how to deal with it. I cannot get over it yet and am not settled.
While I am writing this, a thought came across. When someone praises me, I feel like I was dispraised. I used to feel terrible and I was wondering why I get stricken with such emotions. Maybe it was my mother’s emotions of disappointment when other children were praised. I think it was hard for my mother
Is this what is learning in family?
Ikuko Gach😃 If you seriously act to change yourself, someday you will be able to appreciate your mother from the bottom of your heart. You probably think right now that your mother’s way of bringing you up created your inferiority complex. However, by working on it and when this becomes lesser, you will realize how important a message your mother was sending you. At this time, your mother will change too. You will learn the preciousness of family here.
YI (08-03-2020)
“I am different from other people and I am so great!” It is so easy for humans to be misdirected by a false prophet and look down on people and tell them what to do. Yes, I have done this a lot. I apologize when I was doing this. What an arrogant person!I still have a small amount of that consciousness in me.
I understand Ikuko’s way of living is not in this direction. I appreciate her and that by showing her way, I feel that I’d better follow her way. I still get fear once in a while. But when that comes, I look at myself from the point of view of the universe. Anyways, I am trying every day to proceed ahead without fear and learn from my action. Thank you very much.